In the Meantime

Now, I understand God’s inner workings. I deeply care for a man who is broken. In my selfishness last year, I wanted to be in a relationship with him. I didn’t realize that he must be healed and in a state of strength before he will be prepared to be in a relationship. I too must be at my best spiritually, physically and emotionally before I enter any romantic relationship. So, this past year I have been working on myself. Taking into account everything that God needs to heal me of before I enter into courtship and the next and last relationship of my life, the relationship that will lead me to the vocation of marriage.

I can see how God has made me focus on my studies as I completed my last semester of college and my student teaching practicum. I also followed my doctor’s instruction and treatment plan. I feel the healthiest I have in years and the happiest and wholest but I still need healing when it comes to some very personal struggles. I have been blessed to have been invited to a weeklong retreat in Florida this summer which may help me heal from these wounds. God is so good and his timing is perfect. As far as my relationship with this friend of mine, I am willing to wait on God. I am willing to wait for God to heal him of his wounds and struggles because I truly care for him. This may be a mistake, but if it is I know God will make it evident to me that it will be time for me to move on, but in the meantime, I will continue to pray fervently for this man whom I care for so deeply.